Finally Got My Ass On The Mat!

tea-tree-yoga-matIt’s been a struggle to say the least. I’m sure you’ve all noticed due to my sporadic writing. I’ve felt guilty and dirty and hopeless after not keeping up as well as I’d promised myself. But then my awareness got the better of me and I realized I was doing the same self-defeating patterns as before my journey began, so I stopped myself right there. I let silence fill me, and I allowed the feeling of the void to take over for a while. Kind of like in yoga. When you’re sore or not doing a particular pose well, oftentimes your teacher will tell you to “breathe through it”, “allow yourself to feel the pain”, “inhale and exhale through the discomfort”. So I did. I took days here and there to check myself and to make some changes that might make me feel motivated to return to my Yoga/Ayurveda journey. I wanted to trust that I needed some space and that in the right moment, I would return.

And so it seems I have!

Last week I became more interested in my diet again. I have fallen off the Ayurveda wagon and have been indulging in crap I shouldn’t: meat, dairy, butter, processed crap, etc. etc. etc. And I have been feeling like utter, utter crap because of it. I decided to round myself up and take some action so I decided I wanted to calculate my macros because I never felt that calories are a complete way to monitor proper nutrition. I’ve never dived into the intimidating world of macros until now and I like the idea that there is more than one factor to weight gain/loss feels right. Macros are just a shortening of “macronutrients”, usually Fat, Protein, and Carbohydrates. I’m going to try out macros in conjunction with Ayurveda this and next week and will weigh myself the first week of March to see how I’m doing. If you are interested in calculating your macros, the best calculator I could find is located on IIFYM.

Yoga, yoga, yoga. Why must you forsake me? More like, why must I forsake myself and be an indulgent lazy ass? Sighs. Okay okay, *reminder to be kind to myself*.

It’s been tough mobilizing myself to bend. As you can tell. I finally got over myself and my hesitations to commit and I found myself a yoga buddy at work and actually did 25 minutes on the mat today! I’m really proud :). I have committed to at least 30 minutes on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday mornings with my work colleague and we actually got ourselves together and did it today! We breathed heavy, we sweat a lot even though it was a 25-minute gentle flow, and we did most of the poses wrong. And it was glorious. What’s more: my co-worker is completely brand new to yoga, so I am excited to introduce someone to this wonderful, peaceful world! Here is to revitalizing this yogi and to creating new ones :D.

I am taking baby steps and I am not looking at this as beginning my journey *again*, but simply continuing on my path to balance, using the same mentality that I hope will help heal me.

Wishing you lots of hugs and lovely motivation this Valentine’s Day week! Stay tuned for some additional yoga information this week/this month. ❤ ❤ ❤

New Year Check-In

new years eve 2017Happy 2017! 2016 flew right by! Or is it that the years always begin to fly by once you hit 25+? Anywho, I’m excited for new beginnings. Everything feels fresh, new, and untouched. Amazing how an imaginary man-made calendar can be the catalyst for such crisp motivation.

I just realized it’s been a month since I started this blog. Crazy! I also realized that I never included my weight loss on the blog, just on Instagram. So here I go. When I first started my Ayurvedic journey, I was at my highest weight of 275 lbs. And when I started this blog I clocked-in at 255, so I decided to do a weigh-in before my family visits to the Midwest. Shortly before I left for my Christmas/New Year’s vacation, I weighed in at:

253.5 lbs! That’s a 21.5 lb total loss, with another 1.5 lb in between starting my blog and this post, bitches! 

I just had a WONDERFUL vacation to Illinois and Missouri for 10 days. Visited my family, the in-laws, and met hubby’s extended family for the first time. It was magical. Seriously. And I was so apprehensive about the whole thing! I was worried I wouldn’t be accepted into his family. Was worried that I’d lose the Christmas Spirit in my parent’s house (like I did since my early adolescence) and was my general, cynical, Bah-Humbug-Self as per usual (…hello…Yoga Bitch, remember?). But I was proven wrong! And I sincerely thank the Universe that I am aware/open enough to recognize that I had a fabulous time. Just smitten over here :). I introduced my family to “Yoga Bitch” and my whole Ayurveda idea and was met with some skepticism, as expected. Special shout-out/thank you to Mom who was totally sticking up for me the whole time (and endearingly I might add), though.

My favorite part was my step dad squinting his eyes and reading through my posts and exclaiming “…I mean do you really feel the need to use the “f” word all the time?? Do you think that educated/intelligent people will respond well to that…?!” My response was: “Well yeah, I kind of do, actually. That was the whole point of me releasing the persona/idea of ‘Yoga Bitch’. I’m done with hiding who I am or sugar coating my abrasiveness. I’m just being me.” His look to my answer showed me that he mildly accepted my reasoning but remained slightly suspicious. The energy ended up clearing later on (to my smug pleasure) when he started quoting one of his favorite esoteric philosophers and as he was reading out loud, realized that the man swore throughout his whole book, too! 1-0, Yoga Bitch.

I haven’t weighed myself since I got back. It’s quite possible I gained back a bit weight but it’s also possible I haven’t. I’m not sure. And I’m not going to bother checking. At least not until I get moving with some yoga. I’ve been on my period this week so I honestly haven’t felt like doing much of anything. I don’t get cramps but I bloat a crap ton and feel generally sluggish. Plus, traveling wears me the fuck out. Literally took planes, trains, and cars the past couple weeks so I am slow to get back. But, I will. And I don’t mind that it’s taking me a little while. As I’ve been repeating over and over, this is about the process for me.

I wanted to share how I get my yoga fix. It’s a cheap, simple alternative to going to a physical class. And although I do want to get my yoga teacher certification eventually, I still do feel a little embarrassed bending and heavy breathing around other yoga gazelles as I see them. I’m getting there mentally, people. It’ll take me a while to get over it.

ONEOEIGHT!: https://oneoeight.com/.

This is a website/community started by yoga_girl Rachel Brathen herself to bring yoga, community, and love to the world. I absolutely love her vision and the entire layout/style of this site. It’s only $14/month (with 10 free days) and it’s set up so you can work to balance yourself in each of OneoEight’s four “Houses”: Move (for yoga), Calm (for meditation/self-help videos), Nourish (recipe, food vids), and Explore (for yoga/meditation retreats). It’s ideal for my journey and what I need, and I don’t have to spend money every time I go to a class. I love that you can add your favorite videos to your virtual mat and that there is such a wide variety of videos. The quality is impeccable. Okay, I’m done with what sounds like an ad. But seriously check it out and yoga the fuck out!

Hugs to you all! ❤ 🙂

…Yoga Bitch…Really?

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For the first time yesterday, I doubt myself and my process. I have felt divine inspiration as I’ve embarked on my journey to balance through Ayurveda and yoga, but yesterday I wasn’t sure. I know that I need something to differentiate “me” and this supposed, eventual yoga studio I want to open. I mean, I need to, right? There’s a yoga studio opening up on every fucking street corner it seems like, especially in my city: Los Angeles. It’s the Western capital of yoga for fuck’s sake! So I sulked and I doubted. And I feared that I’m not special or interesting enough.

I don’t have an easy past. This past has shaped me: a past of being bullied, sexually molested, my parents divorcing and remarrying other people, and being a first generation American which also gave me a side of “identity crisis”. It could have been worse. It can always be worse. But it made me who I am today: vulgar, cynical, chock-full of dark humor, with an extremely tender heart that never hardened through it all. I wanted it to. I tried to break it myself. But the softness, the fragility of my inner child’s tiny heart prevailed. 🌟

I had a long talk with my mom yesterday. We talked about Rachel Brathen (the famous yoga_girl) and her incredible movement and her beautiful soul and how she reflects love and purity onto everything she touches. Although I have the exact same intentions, I am not like her, but part of me wishes I was. We’re the same fucking age and she’s conquering the world and birthing perfect spiritual prodigies and here I am in my little dark corner, almost brooding! I wish I could channel Heaven so consistently and effortlessly…

The Truth is, Hell is easier for me. I can be very abrasive and offensive and loud and my bluntness, Yin, and general allergy to bullshit has gotten me into trouble on more than one occasion. Most occasions 😳. I told my mom: “…But I don’t want to offend all the beautiful perfect yogis who are serene and in tune with their Higher Selves and The Collective. I don’t want to make noise where there should be silence! I don’t want to create controversy with my personality. I’ll scare them all away…!!!”. And she said: “So, what?”…So, what indeed. I realized that at the end of the day, people will always respond more to rawness, even if some of it is ugly. So here, I am. Enter: Yoga Bitch 😈.

The word ‘bitch’ is not derogatory to me. It’s empowering! But I understand the connotations and how people may possibly respond to this energy. I know it can even be uncomfortable to some, but that’s why I chose it. I’ve been called the name so much through my life. For my honesty, for my disregard for pointless authority, my strong opinions, for always being so misunderstood.

Does it scare me to brand myself with that name? Yes. Do I feel like I have to bleed a little before I can be comfortable with it? Probably. Do I have to do it? FUCK YES. Because it’s who I am! I carry my wounds with me on my exposed, white sleeve and it hurts. But I love with everything that I am, all that I do and think, and with every action I take. And I have to trust that through this keeping unconditional love, despite my sometimes harsh demeanor, “they will come…”. Because THIS is a true balancing act! 💓💓💓

Yoga + Me

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What is the relationship between yoga and Ayurveda? It is said that Ayurveda is the science and that yoga is the practice of the science. Therefore, I would like to dedicate this blog post to yoga and my background with it. One of my goals for 2017 is to complete my yoga teacher certification through the Yoga Alliance. It’s a fairly new goal for me, but an exciting [and steep one] one at that!

History of Yoga

Yoga’s history has many places of obscurity due to its oral transmission of sacred texts and the secretive nature of its teachings, much like Ayurveda. The early writings on yoga were transcribed on fragile palm leaves that were easily damaged, destroyed or lost. The development of yoga can be traced back to over 5,000 years ago, but some researchers think that yoga may be up to 10,000 years old old. Yoga’s long rich history can be divided into four main periods of innovation, practice and development:

Pre-Classical Yoga
The beginnings of Yoga were developed by the Indus-Sarasvati civilization in Northern India over 5,000 years ago. The word yoga was first mentioned in the oldest sacred texts, the Rig Veda. The Vedas were a collection of texts containing songs, mantras and rituals to be used by Brahmans, the Vedic priests. Yoga was slowly refined and developed by the Brahmans and Rishis (mystic seers) who documented their practices and beliefs in the Upanishads, a huge work containing over 200 scriptures. The most renowned of the Yogic scriptures is the Bhagavad-Gîtâ, composed around 500 BCE. The Upanishads took the idea of ritual sacrifice from the Vedas and internalized it, teaching the sacrifice of the ego through self-knowledge, action (karma yoga) and wisdom (jnana yoga).

Classical Yoga
In the pre-classical stage, yoga was a mishmash of various ideas, beliefs and techniques that often conflicted and contradicted each other. The Classical period is defined by Patanjali’s Yoga-Sûtras, the first systematic presentation of yoga. Written some time in the second century, this text describes the path of Raja Yoga, often called “classical yoga”. Patanjali organized the practice of yoga into an “eight limbed path” containing the steps and stages towards obtaining Samadhi or enlightenment. Patanjali is often considered the father of yoga and his Yoga-Sûtras still strongly influence most styles of modern yoga.

Post-Classical Yoga
A few centuries after Patanjali, yoga masters created a system of practices designed to rejuvenate the body and prolong life. They rejected the teachings of the ancient Vedas and embraced the physical body as the means to achieve enlightenment. They developed Tantra Yoga, with radical techniques to cleanse the body and mind to break the knots that bind us to our physical existence. This exploration of these physical-spiritual connections and body centered practices led to the creation of what we primarily think of yoga in the West: Hatha Yoga.

Modern Period
In the late 1800s and early 1900s, yoga masters began to travel to the West, attracting attention and followers. This began at the 1893 Parliament of Religions in Chicago, when Swami Vivekananda wowed the attendees with his lectures on yoga and the universality of the world’s religions. In the 1920s and 30s, Hatha Yoga was strongly promoted in India with the work of T. Krishnamacharya, Swami Sivananda and other yogis practicing Hatha Yoga. Krishnamacharya opened the first Hatha Yoga school in Mysore in 1924 and in 1936 Sivananda founded the Divine Life Society on the banks of the holy Ganges River. Krishnamacharya produced three students that would continue his legacy and increase the popularity of Hatha Yoga: B.K.S. Iyengar, T.K.V. Desikachar and Pattabhi Jois. Sivananda was a prolific author, writing over 200 books on yoga, and established nine ashrams and numerous yoga centers located around the world.

The importation of yoga to the West still continued at a trickle until Indra Devi opened her yoga studio in Hollywood in 1947. Since then, many more western and Indian teachers have become pioneers, popularizing hatha yoga and gaining millions of followers. Hatha Yoga now has many different schools or styles, all emphasizing the many different aspects of the practice.

Yoga + Me

I first was introduced to yoga almost 15 years ago, when I was barely a teenager, around the ages of 12-13. My mom casually brought it up to me and we would practice it in high school during gym classes and dance classes and I had a few Bikram home videos that I would pop in every once in a while. It was the new fad. No one really understood it in the Western world yet, but we all did it because it was mysterious and holistic and seemed like it worked. Logically it made sense anyway. I always noticed that I would tend to sweat a lot when doing the yoga videos [and felt good] but perhaps it was my teenage brain that was not developed enough yet to truly appreciate the actual purpose and benefits of yoga. I remember thinking that it was too slow, too boring, and overall not worth my time.

I was a moderate athlete at that point in my life. I had grown up doing sports (although not highly competitively but nonetheless regularly) and had always been active the majority of my life. I started playing tennis at the age of 8 and continued until I was about 14. In high school, I was on the badminton and water polo teams, was in dance for 2 years, and worked out obsessively every night (this included a combination of Tae Bo®, swimming, weights, and body exercises like ab crunches). I was in the prime of my life, physically. Although I was never particularly light, I was extremely fit/lean/muscular and was pretty happy with it. At 5’7, I weighed an average of 150-160 and was a size 10 in dresses/pants. Perhaps not extremely small, and to some possibly even overweight on paper, but I looked and felt great.

…Then my hormones attacked. At the age of 17 to 18, my hormones went insanely out of whack. I started taking birth control pills and started gaining a bit of weight as I had a steady boyfriend (and we all know that it’s typical to gain weight once you’re in a relationship and once you’re on The Pill) and it created an avalanche effect to my already underlying/dormant medical condition: Metabolic Syndrome. I won’t go deep into that now, but it’s a hormonal condition which is characterized by insulin resistance aka bad news for your body and happy state-of-mind. I graduated high school and stopped being so active since I didn’t have any more school sponsored sports to participate in. My minor weight gains caused me to develop depression which in turn caused me to fall deeper into the black hole of fat as I saw it which caused me to stop caring about working out every day and that that point, I couldn’t stop gaining. And I wouldn’t for a while.

By the time I was 21, I had gained 90 lbs. And 6 years later, I’m still there. Stuck in my body like a prisoner, with not-so-distant memories of easy running, moving, and breathing. It’s torture. Thankfully, I stopped gaining weight at the age of 21 and I have remained fairly steady since then. Now at 27, I have decided that enough is enough. I have tried it all. And I’ve failed at it all. Until I woke up and realized that there may not be a genuine “victory” or “failure” at diet and overall healthy lifestyle. It’s a process, a practice, exactly like yoga and Ayurveda. Hence, my journey to balance with Ayuveda [and yoga].

Although I have been practicing yoga on-and-off these past months, I am choosing to be consistent beginning this week. My goal is to dedicate at least one day this week to the practice. It may seem like too small a goal to some, but I am trying to set myself up so it’s difficult to NOT reach the goal. Next week, I want to add 2 days, the week after that 3, until I feel comfortable to work up to 4, then 5, then everyday eventually. I am healing my tendency to negative thinking and poor habits, and through this channel, I plan to achieve that. Namaste.

Photo credit: https://coswb.as.ucsb.edu
Information: http://www.yogabasics.com/

Ayurveda = Life Science

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The term “Ayurveda” combines the Sanskrit words ayur (life) and veda (science or knowledge). Ayurvedic medicine, as practiced in India, is one of the oldest systems of medicine in the world. Many Ayurvedic practices predate written records and were handed down by word of mouth. Three ancient books known as the Great Trilogy were written in Sanskrit more than 3,000 years ago (and some sources claim even longer) and are considered the main texts on Ayurvedic medicine. They are called: Caraka Samhita, Sushruta Samhita, and Astanga Sangraha.

These classical texts are completely central to Ayurveda. They are quintessential.

Here is a more in-depth look at these texts:

CHARAKA SAMHITA

Charaka was a physician who was always traveling. He was a disciple of Agnivesha who wrote the Atreya Samhita. Charaka rewrote the Agnivesha samhita (in about 1000 BCE). Around 400 ACE, Drdabala worked upon charaka samhita and re-formed it. This re-formed version of Drdabala is available to us as the “Charaka samhita”.

Many chapters in Charaka samhita are in the form of symposiums; where in groups of sages take in certain topics for discussion. The text, which is written in Sanskrit, is in the form of prose and verses. It contains 8,400 metrical sentences. The focus is on “Kaya chikitsa” the internal medicine, which aims to balance the “Agni”, or the digestive fire, responsible for metabolism.

SUSRUTA SAMHITA

The word “Susruta” means “one who listens very well”. Susruta was a surgeon. He was the disciple of Divodasa Dhanvantari of the Dhanvantari lineage. The text dates back to around the 6th century BCE. Due to his contribution to surgery he is recognized as the “Father of Surgery.”

Later, around the the 2nd century BCE, the text was re-edited by Nagarjuna. The text explains various surgical procedures and includes techniques to repair a torn ear lobe, cleft palate and disfigured nose, uniting the torn intestines, removal of the prostrate gland, removal of cataracts, draining of abscesses, and also some surgical procedures in the brain. In BCE! Isn’t that INCREDIBLE?! He has explained about the dissection of cadavers and the method to preserve them besides describing 101 kinds of blunt instruments (yanra) and 20 kinds of sharp instruments (shastra).

ASHTANGA SANGRAHA

Around 5th century AD, Vagbhatta compiled a treatise named Ashtanga sangraha. It combines both the above treatises, explaining all the 8 parts of Ayurveda including, Kaya chikitsa (internal medicine) and Shalya tantra (surgery).

Ashtanga sangraha excels in explaining the basic concepts of Ayurveda. It explains all the basics of Ayurveda, such as the

• Theory of 5 elements (panchamahabuta tatva)

• Theory of 3 functional principles (tridosha siddhanta)

• Theory of 7 structural principles (sapta dhatu tatva)

• Theory of 6 tastes (shad rasa siddhanta)

Seeing that the text Ashtanga sangraha is very elaborate the same author Vagbhatta has also written a text called ‘Ashtanga hrdayam’. Ashtanga hrdayam is more concise; it covers all the 8 parts of Ayurveda. Ashtanga sangraha is written in both prose and in the poetry form while Ashtanga hrdayam is completely written in poetry form, which is easy to memorize.

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I believe that there is still so much that is not written in books about Ayurveda. There is still so much out there that is left to uncover. As it was originally a word-of-mouth tradition, there by default are branches of complexities that have not even been wholly documented. This is my assumption (and I feel it’s true after I have begun my extensive research). But in total sincerity, how fucking AWE-INSPIRING is it that this ancient tradition that began in India by sages was documenting surgery. And not just “minor” cuts, but major operations! This feels like the time I found out that Kabbalah mentions atoms. ATOMS BEING MENTIONED THOUSANDS OF YEARS AGO, PEOPLE!!! BLEW. MY. MIND.

Some may doubt that word-of-mouth traditions are concise or consistent (I mean hey, who hasn’t played the game “Telephone” in elementary school?), but one of the things I learned as I was studying to earn my Bachelor’s in English, is that before written documentation, traditions passed down through generations through story telling (or word-of-mouth) were extremely coherent and precise, even when passing through different people. As before written history existed, word-of-mouth was the primary form of communication and therefore had to be consistent and legitimate, by necessity.

I look forward to uncovering more Ancient Truths as my journey continues!

Information from: http://www.medindia.net/ayurveda/ayurveda-classical-texts2.htm

 

This Routine Thing…Will Take A While.

2-hot-water-and-lemonHello there! Checking in/holding myself accountable/procrastinating doing any actual work/drinking some hot lemon water this morning. How are you? 🙂

So as I said before, I am taking this Ayurvedic lifestyle one day at a time. I am taking the steps I need at a pace that I need to eventually fully integrate myself into a wholly Ayurvedic life. As I just mentioned, I am beginning my morning with a cup of hot lemon water. This is a fantastic way to wake up your digestive tract on an empty stomach and the alkaline properties in the lemon [once it digests in your system] will help cleanse the blood and organs to really wake your body up. I’m still getting used to it. It’s not as good as tea. Just  being honest! I knew this whole process wouldn’t be glorious and simple. I knew I would have issues with it, especially someone like me who knows EXACTLY what she likes and wants and what she doesn’t. But, intuitively, this still feels right. It’s not easy to adapt for now, but my gut is telling me that this may be the best thing that can happen to me, and for me, for my health.

I technically shouldn’t be eating lemons. :(. Which saddens me. Ayurveda teaches us that sour fruits are not a good idea for my dosha (Pitta-Kapha) so I will eventually ween myself off. The truth is that I completed the Master Cleanse before I decided to dive into Ayurveda so I still have a shit ton of lemons to use up! Once I am done with those, I will switch over to hot water + 1-2 tablespoons of apple cider vinegar (I think Bragg’s brand is best as it’s unfiltered and raw).

SO…HOW MANY POINTS OUT OF THE ‘PERFECT’ AYURVEDIC MORNING ROUTINE DID I ACTUALLY COMPLETE THIS MORNING? LET’S SEE…

  1. Wake Up Between 3am and 6am – Check! This is easy-peasy for me on weekdays when I need to wake up early for work.
  1. Eliminate – Check! Also lucky me in the sense that I have never had issues with my metabolism or eliminating. Yes, I am overweight but I can go up to 2-3 times a day. Sorry for the TMI, but hey I promised I’d be brutally honest.
  2. Scrape Tongue – Check! Well, sort of. I did it with my toothbrush and not a metal one like is recommended. I am waiting for my next paycheck (some of you know that struggle) to get a nice stainless steel one. I think I will be getting the one from Banyan Botanicals as it’s very affordable.
  3. Brush Teeth – Check! This one is not too hard ;).
  1. Drink Warm Water – Yes! Just mentioned this one above.
  1. Swish & Gargle with Pulling Oil – Nope. I am also wanting to get the “Daily Swish” from Banyan as it’s mint flavored. Saving up for that one too. I’ve read for some people having the feeling of oil in their mouth can be gag-worthy so I’m not sure if I want to experiment with plain coconut oil first…
  1. Massage Gums with Pulling Oil – Nope. See above :).
  1. Splash Cold Water in the Eyes – Damn it! If I’m being totally honest, I freaking forgot :(. I did it last night when I got home, but nonetheless, I will try to remember for tomorrow morning too.
  1. Meditation, Pranayama, Prayer, or Quiet Reflection – I didn’t. I can, too, I just didn’t. There’s really no excuse except that my laziness won this morning and I just couldn’t get out of bed. My snooze hand ruled and I obliged. As meditation is something that I have been able to do successfully these past couple of years (it took a lot of practice and focus), I will make a more conscious effort to include this.
  1. Movement – Nope. Once again, see laziness justification (a crappy one, really) above.
  2. Abhyanga (Ayurvedic Oil Massage) – No. I don’t really have any essential oils yet. I will research what is ideal for me and will get back to you on what I end up getting.
  1. Apply Warm Oil to the Ears – Nope, no oils yet. See above!
  1. Apply Warm Oil to the Top of the Head – Nope, no oils yet. See above!
  1. Foot Massage – I should really begin to do this, but no I did not this morning. I have noticed that my feet have been getting swollen lately at the end of the day, namely my ankles. But it does happen in the morning sometimes too. So I am going to be reducing my sodium as much as I can (without feeling like I’m eating cardboard constantly).
  1. Cleanse or Lubricate the Nasal Passages – I do have a Nettie pot somewhere but no, I did not complete this. I am not a particular fan how the Nettie pot feels (let’s face it’s queer as fuck), but I DO swear by it when I’m sick. I will try lubricating the nose first and see how that goes.
  1. Massage the Body with Dry Powder – I don’t have dry powder either…I stopped buying baby powder when companies figured out they can bottle and sell better recipes for dry shampoo! Will be researching and getting the best, most natural one I can find. (Extra note – ‘best’ doesn’t always mean most expensive).
  1. Bathe – I did it last night! I am not a fan of showering in the mornings but I will eventually switch over since bathing is part of the routine. I will try it out tomorrow morning.
  1. Breakfast Time – Another no for me (unless you count a large cappuciino, which hey a lot of people do). Breakfast is tough because I’ve always hated it. I wasn’t always overweight and all through my childhood and teen years, eating breakfast was always unpleasant to me. I just never feel that hungry until about 10-11a. I will make a conscious effort to at least eat some quinoa or cooked fruit, though. Eventually :).

Half-way through this list, I doubted whether I should create or publish this post. I kept telling myself: “What is the point? You haven’t really done most of the points and you’re supposed to be showing others your Ayurvedic accomplishments, etc etc etc etc *insert additional self-doubting phrases here*”. But, I don’t care. I don’t care that I’m not being perfect. I am forcing myself not to care. I’m not saying it’s not making me psychologically ‘itch’ to get out of these obsessive-compulsive habits, but I am making this about the PROCESS. The love process, dammit. So I am letting go. And I am loving.

The Traditional Ayurvedic Morning Routine

woman-getting-massage-with-oils-jpg-653x0_q80_crop-smartWhat follows is a brief description of a traditional Ayurvedic morning routine. Remember, this is the ideal. As you read through this list, pay close attention to which elements stir the deepest response in your body. Those practices will usually be the best ones to start with. This is from a favorite Ayurvedic website/online store of mine, Banyan Botanicals.

  1. Wake Up Between 3am and 6am

The classics recommend that we rise during the “ambrosial hours” of the morning, sometime between 3am and 6am. This is a Vata time of day: the atmosphere is infused with lightness and clarity, which helps us to more easily awaken. Equally important, this time of day is regarded as being the most conducive for creating a connection with our deepest inner nature and consciousness. Waking during this particular timeframe is not necessary for children, the elderly, or for those who are sick, pregnant, or breast-feeding. Regardless of what time works best for you, your daily routine will be most beneficial if you wake up at a consistent time from one day to the next.

  1. Eliminate

Empty the bladder and the bowels. Ayurveda views morning elimination as a natural and essential element of daily hygiene and health. If you do not typically have a bowel movement first thing in the morning, some of the below practices (like drinking warm water) may help you regulate this function in your body. Or, consider taking triphala to support healthy and regular elimination.

  1. Scrape Tongue

This simple hygiene practice removes bacteria and toxins that have accumulated on the tongue overnight. It also serves to stimulate and cleanse the digestive tract and the vital organs. So while tongue scraping is considered an important element of daily oral hygiene, it also supports the natural detoxification of the system at large. Another benefit of scraping the tongue is that it allows us to take notice of the coating on our tongues each morning and to begin to see how our dietary choices and lifestyle habits influence our overall health from one day to the next. A tongue cleaner made of stainless steel is balancing for all doshas. When you are finished, rinse with clean water and spit.

  1. Brush Teeth

While this practice is already familiar to all of us, Ayurveda recommends cleaning the teeth with herbs that promote oral health – like neem – which are typically bitter, astringent, or pungent in taste.

  1. Drink Warm Water

Drinking a glass of warm water cleanses and awakens the digestive tract, hydrates the tissues, and promotes peristalsis – which can encourage a bowel movement, even when there is a tendency toward sluggishness or constipation. It is best to drink water only after the mouth and the tongue have been cleansed so as not to swallow the bacteria and toxins that have accumulated in the mouth overnight.

  1. Swish & Gargle with Pulling Oil

It is said that swishing and gargling with warm oil lends strength to the teeth, gums, jaw, and voice, while improving the sense of taste. Spit the oil out after you have held and swished it in your mouth for the desired period of time. This practice can be done briefly, for 1-2 minutes, or for as long as 15 minutes. If a longer swish and gargle is appealing, consider doing it during abhyanga (see below), or while completing other aspects of your morning routine.

  1. Massage Gums with Pulling Oil

Use your clean index finger to gently massage a bit of oil into your gums. This practice further benefits the teeth and gums by increasing circulation in these tissues and encouraging absorption of the oil.

  1. Splash Cold Water in the Eyes

Our eyes work very hard all day and they tend to accumulate a lot of heat. Splashing a bit of cold water into each eye in the morning helps to cool, sooth, and relax the eyes, but also helps us to feel more vibrantly awake.

  1. Meditation, Pranayama, Prayer, or Quiet Reflection

If the central purpose of a morning routine is to calm the nervous system and ground the being before the day begins, then meditation, pranayama, prayer, or quiet reflection are perhaps its most essential elements. You may already have a practice that speaks to you. If not, simply sitting quietly and breathing slowly and deeply for a few minutes can have a tremendously beneficial effect. If you’re looking for a soothing and powerful introduction to breath work, Dr. Claudia Welch’s Prana CD consists of four guided breathing exercises that can be practiced in sequence or individually.

  1. Movement

Making time to move our bodies in an appropriate way in the morning is both grounding and energizing. It supports natural detoxification by promoting healthy circulation and by helping to move stagnation from the organs and tissues. It also helps to loosen and awaken the body and the joints. Early morning is a very supportive time for almost anyone to exercise because of the strengthening and stabilizing influence of kapha, (which is prevalent in the atmosphere from about 6am-10am). If it is not possible for you to exercise in the early morning, early evening is a good alternative (about 6pm – 10pm), preferably before dinner.

  • Yoga

As a sister science of Ayurveda, yoga is a natural part of an Ayurvedic daily routine. However, different individuals will benefit from different types of yoga, depending on their constitution and current state of balance. For pitta-kapha types, a more invigorating form of yoga – such askapha-pacifying yoga – practiced with relaxed effort (rather than strained intensity) is usually most appropriate. Including several twists, forward folds, and a sufficient time in shavasana will also help to balance pitta.

  • Other Forms of Exercise

Ayurveda recommends different types and intensities of exercise for different constitutions and imbalances. In general, Ayurveda suggests that we exercise to only about 50% of our capacity – until we break a mild sweat on the forehead, under the arms, and along the spine, or until the first sign of dryness in the mouth. For pitta-kapha types, the ideal exercise program is typically active and challenging but should also serve to relax and release pitta’s intensity. In other words, it is best to strive for a calm and centered state of mind throughout the activity. Appropriate forms of exercise for pitta-kapha types include swimming, jogging, biking, hiking, and martial arts.

  1. Abhyanga (Ayurvedic Oil Massage)

This ancient practice of self-massage with oil calms the nervous system, lubricates and rejuvenates the tissues, and promotes healthy circulation throughout the body. It is no coincidence that the Sanskrit word for oil, sneha, also means love. Abhyanga is a profound practice of rejuvenation and loving self-care that benefits both the physical body and the more subtle realms of consciousness. Each morning, before a shower or bath, massage about 1/4 cup warm Kapha Massage Oil (because kapha tends to be more aggravated by the qualities of oil massage) or Organic Sesame Oil into the skin.

  1. Apply Warm Oil to the Ears

The ears are closely related to vata dosha (which is easily aggravated by modern life). Lubricating the ears with warm, untoasted sesame oil regularly can help to pacify vata in general, but can also support the sense of hearing, prevent stiffness in the neck by lubricating local tissues, and encourage healthy TMJ function. You can use an eyedropper to place about 10 drops of warm sesame oil in one ear at a time – letting it sit for several minutes before draining any excess and then repeat the process on the other side. Or, you can simply use the tip of your pinky finger to lubricate the inside of each ear with a bit of sesame oil.

  1. Apply Warm Oil to the Top of the Head

Oiling the head and scalp is deeply soothing and can help to prevent headaches, hair loss, and greying. It also supports each of the sense organs and encourages sound sleep.

  1. Foot Massage

Our feet literally carry us through each day. Massaging them each morning, focusing on the soles in particular, is a very grounding and nurturing practice. But because various points on the feet correlate with organs and tissues throughout the body, it also supports proper vision, relieves stress, and offers many other systemic benefits.

  1. Cleanse or Lubricate the Nasal Passages

There are two Ayurvedic practices that support clean, clear nasal passages and clarity of mind. Both of these practices are best done on an empty stomach, usually early in the morning. They each have distinct energies and benefits, so if you chose to try them both, it is best to separate them by at least a day (i.e. don’t follow nasal rinse immediately with nasya or visa versa).

  • Nasal Rinse

Nasal rinse is a practice of pouring warm salt water through the nasal passages to moisten the mucus membranes and cleanse the nasal passages of dust, dirt, pollen, and excess mucus. If you find that your nasal passages feel dry afterwards, you can use your pinky finger to lubricate the nostrils with a bit of sesame oil or ghee when you’re finished or at another time of day (i.e. as part of your bedtime routine).

  • Nasya

Nasya is the practice of applying medicated oil to the nasal passages to soothe these delicate tissues, promote unobstructed breathing, relieve accumulated stress, and support mental clarity. This practice is also said to improve the quality of the voice and to strengthen vision. Nasya should not be performed by pregnant or menstruating women. Each morning, find a comfortable place to lie in the supine position (on your back), tilting your head upside down. You may find it helpful to hang your head off the edge of a bed or bolster, so that the top of your crown is parallel with the floor. Once in position, apply 3-5 drops of Nasya Oil into each nostril, sniffing the oil inward and massaging the face, forehead, and scalp to encourage the oil to move up into the sinuses and head. Relax for a minute or two to allow the oil to absorb before slowly getting up.

  1. Massage the Body with Dry Powder

Massaging the body with soft powders (like chickpea or rice flours), stimulates movement of the lymph, balances kapha, encourages circulation, liquefies fat, bolsters the health of the skin, and lends strength and tone to the tissues of the body. It can also help to remove excess oil from the skin following abhyanga.

  1. Bathe

Bathing is a very important part of the traditional Ayurvedic routine. It is said to cleanse and purify the body, to bring energy and alertness to the being, and to promote longevity. Use soap only where necessary. If you’ve done abhyanga, rinsing the skin with warm water will generally suffice to remove excess oil.

  1. Breakfast Time

Establishing a consistent time for breakfast is a great way to ensure that we have time to eat our first meal mindfully and that we start our day well nourished. The content of your breakfast should be seasonally appropriate and supportive of your unique constitution or imbalance.

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…So, WTF do I do now?

This is still where I kind of am. I feel the yin energy pulling me so quickly and so intensely into this new study of Ayurveda that it’s making my head and heart spin, but I am addicted to the feeling. This feels right. It finally feels like this is it.

…So, WTF do I do now?

I think all of us have been here. Anyone who has had the desire to pick up a new craft, hobby, discipline. There is always a feeling of “wtf” and “oh shit”. I like to be colorful with my language for dramatic effect :). But I’ve decided to push through it and I’ve decided that this time, I will not be perfect. I am a major perfectionist and not by choice, I just became this way. Although my room/home tends to be in constant disarray, how I’ve always presented my work has been to a standard that I consider “perfect”. I literally cannot have it any other way or that familiar obsessive-compulsive itch begins to scream at me! I know a lot of you know exactly what I’m talking about.

Well, not this time. I know it holds me back. Every time I started a new “diet” or program or anything new really, I wanted to be perfect. I wanted to be whole. And then I thought about it…This obsession with being whole is the main reason I have issues with food. Why I am constantly stuffing my face with junk and poison. I am searching for that “whole” feeling – for balance! So this is why I am opting to adapt to a new lifestyle that is the epitome of balance and one that has been around for thousands of years. I don’t believe in fads and although new science is constantly allowing breakthroughs in nutrition, I think that the simple idea of balance is the answer to everything; this idea fits into every microcosmic and macrocosmic system you apply it to. It’s timeless! So, I promised myself that I will commit myself wholly to it. I am surrendering.

Each day, I plan on creating new recipes for my dosha (as well as the people in my life) to put into my eventual cookbook that I plan to publish and I will continue to share the effects of my new life with you. I am not a professionally-trained chef, but I do love to cook and I think I can whip up some things quite well :). My cookbook isn’t meant for the average Michelin/gourmet chef or the high-powered-CEO-on-the-run. But it can be. It’s for everyone! I want it to be just damn delicious food that anyone can make and feel their best with. And I don’t want you to necessarily give up what you love or especially if you have special ethnic foods that are very culture-specific. As someone who grew up dual-culturally, I know the struggle!

So, here are the first steps I am taking:

  1. Reducing all dairy to eventually eat none (God I love butter and cheese…). Although I’m not lactose-intolerant, I’ve noticed that my body produces a significantly higher amount of mucous when I do eat dairy.
  2. No more red meat. I would love to completely eliminate all meat and fish, but I still feel attached to it and I don’t want to do this in a way that will cause me to feel resentful and like I’m not ready. I am listening to my heart.
  3. Reducing all wheat and starchy carbohydrates. I’ve also noticed the bloating I tend to get when I eat a lot of bread or pasta. Rice isn’t as bad, but I do feel intuitively that I want to remove most of my attachments to starch.
  4. Beginning to incorporate the foods meant to balance my dosha. I have a comprehensive food list of what I should and should not eat. I will continuously post recipes with these that are specific to my dosha and as time goes on, I will incorporate other doshas as well.
  5. Adopting the “Ideal Ayurvedic Morning Routine. This. I love this. I think it’s a beautiful routine. My favorite one can be found here. I will make a separate blog post on this because it’s so important.

Stay tuned! Thank you for being with me on my new, exciting journey. Sending you all Love, Light, and Hugs!

“You Are Pitta-Kapha”

downloadThis is the phrase of my dosha – my test result:

YOU ARE PITTA-KAPHA FIRE ALONG WITH THE EARTH COMPONENT. YOU ARE QUITE A FORCE OF NATURE. PASSIONATE AND HOT-HEADED WITH THE ABILITY TO PERSUADE PEOPLE TO DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. THESE TWO DOSHAS BRING STRENGTH AND A SMOOTH WAY OF HANDLING PEOPLE.

What Is “Pitta-Kapha?”

Pitta-Kapha is your dosha type. Well, in your case you are a mix of two doshas. Pitta and Kapha. What is a dosha? It’s simply the Ayurvedic definition for your bio-individuality. In other words it’s your body type, which includes your metabolic constitution, your personality, and your physical characteristics. By understanding what makes us unique, we can make better decisions as they relate to our diet, our lifestyle, and our mental health.

So I’m Pitta-Kapha. What Does This Mean?

Pitta–Kapha types often have Pitta physical characteristics with Kapha mental attributes. This means that you have great physical stamina and health along with a high capacity for exercise and athletic pursuits. In addition, you probably have a good memory and a strong capability for learning new information. You tend towards balanced emotions and excellent physical health. The Kapha dosha lends stability while Pitta dosha gives adaptability. This is quite the dynamic combination! On the down side, you can be prone to respiratory infections, skin infections, and premature graying. You can also be arrogant, overconfident, and a bit on the smug side.

EMBODIED BY FIRE AND EARTH, YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO MOVE MOUNTAINS, AND ARE PROUD OF YOUR ACCOMPLISHMENTS—MAYBE A LITTLE TOO PROUD. YOU CAN ALSO BE A BIT REMOVED FROM THE REALITY OF THOSE AROUND YOU. YOU CAN BE AGGRESSIVE AND EMOTIONAL WITH SHARP INTELLECTUAL POWERS SO IT’S WISE TO AVOID ANY KIND OF VERBAL ARGUMENT WITH YOU AS YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO ARGUE YOUR POINT OF VIEW WITH CLARITY, SINGLE-MINDEDNESS AND PRECISION.

TYPICAL PITTA-KAPHA CHARACTERISTICS:

• Heavier, dense, structure (Kapha)
• Moderate body (Pitta)
• Red, full face (Pitta)
• Moderate facial features (Pitta)
• Well developed musculature (Pitta)
• A tendency to add weight (Kapha)

Examples of Famous Pitta-Kaphas:

 

Oprah

Matt Damon

SIGNS & SYMPTOMS OF IMBALANCE:

The common water element between Pittas and Kaphas means that there is an excess of wateriness or oiliness. This shows up in excess watery tissues of the body (phlegm, mucus) and in a tendency to have oily skin and hair. Thus, Pitta–Kaphas do well by eating foods that are astringent and drying. Likewise, Kaphas tendency towards stability and sometimes, immobility means that you can get stuck in a rut. Doing something spontaneous will keep things interesting for you and help balance you out! Additionally, for balance you could benefit from active exercises such as yoga, walking, gymnastics, aerobics, bike riding and running during the early part of the day.

LIFESTYLE RECOMMENDATIONS TO GET YOU BACK IN BALANCE:

• Being a kapha-pitta type means that these two dosha’s are predominant in your constitution. It is usually best to manage a dual dosha according to the season. In general, as a pitta-kapha, follow a pitta-pacifying regimen during the late spring and summer seasons especially when the weather is hot. Follow a kapha-pacifying regimen during the cooler times of year like fall, winter and early spring and especially when the weather is cool and damp.

• Do not skip meals, do not fast and do not wait to eat until you are ravenously hungry. Although you can get so absorbed that you do not eat – this can increaseacidity and make you irritable Start your day with cooked fruit, followed by some cereal. Eat a sustaining meal at lunch, and a lighter meal for dinner. For snacking, choose sweet juicy fruit–fully ripe mangoes, sweet pears and sweet juicy grapes are excellent Pitta-pacifying choices. Delaying meals can cause excess acidity, so eat on time every day. The Amalaki herb helps enhance digestion without aggravating Pitta dosha. It also helps balance stomach acid and studies show that it functions as an antioxidant and supports the liver in maintaining healthy cholesterol levels.

• Daily elimination is very important to prevent digestive toxins from accumulating in the body. Triphala (a mixture of fruits) helps promote regularity as well as toning the digestive system.  Triphala is made up of three fruits and is most commonly purchased as a powder: Triphala has the following effects:

  • Assists natural internal cleansing
  • Gently maintains regularity
  • Nourishes and rejuvenates the tissues
  • Supports healthy digestion and absorption
  • Natural antioxidant

Triphala is most commonly known for its use as a gentle bowel tonic, being helpful in digestion, and supporting regular bowel movements. The combination of the three fruits has a synergistic effect to bolster many other systems as well. In addition to the GI tract, Ayurveda uses triphala to support healthy respiratory, cardiovascular, urinary, reproductive, and nervous systems. Triphala has also been shown to be a powerful antioxidant, protecting cells from the damaging effects of free radicals. The three fruits involved in making triphala are also known for their individual effects:

  • Amalaki (Emblica officinalis): Has a cooling effect that manages pitta, supporting the natural functions of the liver and the immune system.
  • Bibhitaki (Terminalia belerica): Is particularly good for kapha, supporting the respiratory system as well as kapha accumulations in all systems.
  • Haritaki (Terminalia chebula): Though having a heating nature, it is still good for all three doshas (vata, pitta, and kapha). Is known for its “scraping” effect, which removes toxins and helps maintain healthy levels of weight.

• To soothe sensitive skin, to balance the emotions and to nourish and tone muscles and nerves, indulge in an ayurvedic massage every morning before you bathe or shower. Use coconut oil for your massage because coconut cools the skin. If you like, you can add 3-4 drops of a pure essential oil such as lavender or sandalwood to 2 oz. of massage oil. Mix well before use.  After your shower or bath, spray your skin with pure rose or sandalwood water to keep your skin feeling cool all day long.

• Protect yourself from the heat. Stay cool in warm weather by wearing loose cotton clothing. Cotton allows the skin to breathe and for Pittas – they need to wear natural fibers like silk, cotton, and linen. Synthetic material can heat the skin up too much.  Wear a wide-brimmed hat and sunglasses to protect your eyes when you go out. Drink lots of room temperature water.

• Water-based activities are ideal exercise for Pitta-dominant people. Try swimming or aqua- aerobics to stay fit but cool. Strolling after sunset, especially along a waterfront, is also a soothing way to fit some leisurely activity into your day. Being next to water is soothing to Pittas who find the coolness of water calming for their intensity, however the Kapha in you will prefer a dryer environment especially when the humidity starts souring.

• Balance work and play. Set aside some time for R&R everyday, and do not get so absorbed in a project that you are unable to detach from it.

• Set aside about 30 minutes each day for meditation, to help balance the heart and emotions and to enhance body-mind-spirit coordination.

Take the quiz and find out what your dosha is: http://www.moderndosha.com/
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Welcome to Balance

17181723_newThis is what I keep telling myself. “Welcome to balance”. “Welcome to thriving”. “Welcome to nourishment”. “Welcome to Ayurveda”.

My name is Aleks and I have been on a long journey to try and find harmony in my life. I guess that is what everyone is after. For me, it’s been a whirlwind of trials and errors, some successes, and mostly frustration. Therefore, I want to tell you welcome, too. Welcome to my journey of balance and love. My journey into the depths and rewards of the ancient practice of Ayurveda. After years of searching for a miracle diet, magic pill, and easy work out regimen or overall quick cure, all signs point to the simplest (and often most obvious) conclusion: we all need balance. And Ayurveda is the first step to get there for me. And I hope for you, too.

I plan on creating a cookbook that every individual can benefit from. Not only that, my idea is that I do not want people to completely change their existing diets if they do not wish to. Using principles of Ayurveda, I want to help everyone adapt their way of living so that the highest levels of joy and peace are reached without unnecessary strain or inconvenience. I truly believe that mindfulness in the realm of this ancient practice is the best path to reach a blissful state. My primary purpose is not weight loss, although I am certain that will follow, (and I definitely need it); my  main purpose is to fully integrate harmony and balance into my physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies using Ayurveda and its family of practices, including yoga.

Now, what is Ayurveda exactly? It is the traditional Hindu system of medicine which dates back up to 7,000 years, and is based on the idea of balance in bodily systems and uses diet, herbal treatment, and yogic breathing. Ayurveda names three elemental substances, the doshas (called Vata, Pitta and Kapha), and states that a balance of the doshas results in health, while imbalance results in disease. Each person’s body profile fits a specific dosha and there are quizzes to determine which dosha’s profile you fit best. What I love about the determination of doshas is that your genetics are not the only topic taken into consideration; it’s not just nature. It’s nature AND nurture that’s considered and to me, that feels right. How could it not, the whole idea of this thing is balance, right? If it doesn’t balance those two ideas, it wouldn’t make sense to me from the beginning.

I will be documenting (in explicit detail) my journey in Ayuveda and yoga and I will be making notes how following these practices may (or may not) benefit me.

Some beginning information about me:

Age: 27
Sex: Female
Ayurvedic Body Profile: Pitta-Kapha
Height: 5’7
Weight: 255 lbs

I don’t believe in easy fixes anymore. This is why I am taking the time to love myself and to heal. And I hope you join me.

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